I'm not your Superwoman!

I'm not your superwoman.

Its Sunday. Plan to study, but can't concentrate. Keep searching for a song which can voice out my feeling.
Finally found it- Can't Help Falling in Love by Elvis Presley.
I'm totally addicted to this song and keep repeat for whole day ♥
And make it as my bloggie's background song. Hope you all like it too~*


To M.Y :
I'm happy that you still interested with my current life.
Received your text. I think its too late to reply so I never reply you.
******************不要被人伤害了*****
Lotsa things is out of prediction. The one who hurt me most wish me don't get hurt. Anyway, thanks for your wish. I appreciate your concern=)
And I found a song too. The song lyric makes me think of you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08CqZaP0EuA&feature=related
Just for sharing. Hope you like it~

"Look into the corners of your mind,
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times,
but I can't be the superwoman that you want me to be!!
I'll give my everlasting love if you'll return love to me!!
I'm not your superwoman!!!!

I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
and think that everything is okay...
Boy I am only human...
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me..."

有一个人，教会你怎样去爱了，但是，他却不爱你了。

If I say..........I'm not happy.

 -- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says 

y not happy?
 ~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says 
=(
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says 
what happen
 ~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says
是一些小事。。
 自己看不过去
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (12:53 AM):
 如果是小事
 那你就不该被影响到
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (12:53 AM):
 有时候自己也不明白自己在想什么
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (12:54 AM):
 为什么会有这种反应
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (12:54 AM):
 纯粹是emo吧
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (12:55 AM):
 也真的希望是“纯碎”
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (12:55 AM):
 到底发生什么事
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (12:56 AM):
 哈哈。。说出来也觉得很好笑
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (12:56 AM):
 讲看，讲出来可能比较舒服呢
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (12:56 AM):
 不懂你知不知道关于我的过去
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (12:57 AM):
 哪一个
 不知道的话，你嘛讲咯。
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (12:57 AM):
 哈哈。。
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (12:58 AM):
 矛盾的我
 
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (12:58 AM):
 你是指ex?
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (12:58 AM):
 =)
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:02 AM):
 你想念他？
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:03 AM):
 没有。
 只不过，这两年来，都放不下他
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:03 AM):
 那什么矛盾
 lol
 跟想念他差不多
 放不下
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:04 AM):
 可是最近终于有一个人让我放下过去了
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:04 AM):
那就好咯
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:04 AM):
 不过却不明白自己在想什么
 zzz
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:05 AM):
 那
 有什么好不开心的？
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:06 AM):
 不要想太多
 顺其自然
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:06 AM):
 他让我放下过去，却不懂对他又是怎样的感觉。**********************************
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:07 AM):
 观察多一段时间咯
 看他在你心中
 占了什么位置
 时间证明一切
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:07 AM):
 不想再对一个人有感觉了
 就是很怕时间证明
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:07 AM):
 要来
 挡不了
 要走
 拦不了
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:08 AM):
 明白。只是不想在被伤了。
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:10 AM):
 不要太悲观
 可能不是伤呢？
 就算是
 吃的咸鱼抵得渴
 一段爱情
 如果不伤
 不是你不爱。
 就是你不够爱
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:11 AM):
 ='(
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:12 AM):
 矛盾
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:12 AM):
 Don't Scare to being hurt...
 because
 love will cure
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:14 AM):
 可是如果当你明知跟她没有未来，是不是应该不让他发展下去
- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:14 AM):
 如果那个男的喜欢你。
 他会开口。
 你不用去想他会不会喜欢你
 因为这样
 最后
 开口的
 是你
 如果他开口了
 你才来打算
 那个时候
 你的价值
 比较高
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:15 AM):
 就算你明知跟他没有未来
 那也似乎你的状况
 宁愿有一段轰轰烈烈的爱情
 或者
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:16 AM):
 宁愿什么都没有的过日子
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:16 AM):
 老了，不需要什么轰轰烈烈。。哈哈
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:16 AM):
 那就算了咯
 我也是认同
 哈哈
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:16 AM):
 只希望找到真正了解我的人
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:17 AM):
 那就算了咯
 如果他真的了解你
 几年后
 他还是会来找你
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:17 AM):
 haha  
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:17 AM):
 throw everything to fate
 你不是命运
 你不知道
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:17 AM):
 唉 总之什么都不去想。。。
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:18 AM):
 就可以了。。。
-- [c=48] ♂十一月の定♂[/c=10] says (1:18 AM):
 不是不去想
 是想通他
 哈哈
~ M ! s S K ♥ l l y ~ says (1:18 AM):
 想了心里不舒服=(

And blah blah blah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

A conversation between me and Daniel. (This is after some edition as its contain some p&c)
A simple way to explain-why I'm unhappy tonight.
No energy to explain much tonight. Fell tired. Physically and mentally.
Good Night~*

Thanks God~*

Almost late back to hostel today.

Dad said wanna bring me back. But worry him drive back alone as mom is working nowadays.
So,back Penang alone by bus. When I reached Penang jetty, its only 7++pm but dragged up till 8.50pm the bus only came! WTH!!!
I ask the driver, did he manage to drop me at hostel before 10pm??
He answered, CAN'T. As this was the answer I expected. Cause last time, Audrey and me also kena the same condition. The bus reached nearly 9pm, and we bought the ticket. But the driver said can't manage to drop us by 10pm so we get off from the bus and asked for help.

Anyway, its not my fault, I came earlier, the bus was the one who makes me late again. This is not the first time.
Then I disappointingly told him, its okay~I shall call up my friends to rescue me.
May be he felt guilt?! Haha! He told me, I try my best to drive faster for you to reach there before 10pm.
I asked him again, your fast means around what time can reach?
He said, 9.50 or 9.55.
OMG! Just 5mins before 10pm?! Should I take the risk?? But he showed me the kindness. And I chose to trust him that he manage to drop me before 10pm=)

Finally he started the journey. 9.05pm. DAMN WORRY!! I can't stop looking for the time.
Anyway, I can felt he really tried his best. And dropped me by 9.45pm=)
Before I went off from the bus, he told me : See, its only 9.45pm. Earlier than the time expected and laughed.
I feel so grateful and thanks him~

Thanks God for helping me too.
But mom advised me, rather late but never take taxi alone!
Seriously, I chose to be late also don't want take cab alone. Damn scary=(
After reached hostel, I just realize my both hands were numb! Gosh! Really, no more next time please!!

This incident make me think of him again.
Seriously, after he went, I changed a lot. I changed to be more independent.
I can take bus alone now=)

Still remembered. The very first time I took bus alone, He worry about me.=)
I get lost in the bus station (as I really poor in direction=[ ) and force to take a bus by the seller which going to Alor Star.
Think back, Im really damn tambai. CCH x cakap salah><
Since that time, He doesn't allow me to take bus alone anymore. When I'm coming Penang for classes, He will accompany me early in the morning to come Penang and watch me get on the TARC bus only he left and back home alone. I really feel touch for what he did and tears flow='(
After class, he will drive here with his mosquito and bring me back=)
I can feel that he was really care bout me. As I'm always under his care, I'm totally dependent on him.
That's why, I felt so hard when I lost him='( Bus station always remind me how good he was. So I don't take bus since the day he left!
But slowly, I try to learn to be independent. Recently, I think 4 or 5months ago, I manage to take bus alone again=)

Time flies~ Everything will be fine=)
In my history, He became a "was".
I will only keep those sweet memories but not those lies, as I don't wish to hate him.
For him : Thanks, You makes me feel what is love in the past=) Yet, You makes me believe nothing last forever and lies sometimes will be more and cover up the love.

S.w.e.e.t D.r.e.a.m.s~*

Wondering You are Sweet Dream or just a Beautiful Nightmare for me.
"Nightmare" gone. Wish you are the "Sweet Dream" to accompany me in my every single night ♥
Good night~*

xoxo♥

P/s : I also don't know since when. The "You" I started mention no longer my past him. 

You.Yah! Itss You! no others else=)

我一直以为，我还喜欢着，我突然发现，原来住在我心里的，是回忆中的他，而我——忘不掉的是我对他付出的感情，而不是他！

Yess. This statement exactly expressing what am I actually feel=)

1st November'10

Today is the first day of November.
A month full with S.T.R.E.S.S !

Posted to Operation Theater again for this week.
2 weeks more will be Terminal Exam! Sigh!
The notes thick as a lil mountain. How am I going to digest all. I wonder ><" Help me!!
After Terminal Exam, continue with O.S.C.E (kind of practical exam). Gosh!
Things all come in 1 month. Chi kek-.-" 
Good luck to myself, my classmates and those having exam in the same month too=)

The latest post of mine in Facebook. I like this quote ♥ 

我允许你走进我的世界，但不许你在我的世界里走来走去。

Its sounds sweet and meaningful~*

I allow You to step in my world. But don't ever walk in and out from my life without my permission ♥ 

Don't know why, the appearance of you lights my life up. Though You never do anything.

You make me walk out from the darkness of the past.

And You will never know, You are the reason for me to smile=)

The Last Day Of October~*

Good morning, its Sunday again~*

Woke up on 8.30am and prepared to attend mass with Audrey.

before going out~*

In the church, a young couple sat in front of us. They were so sweet with a cute lil son.
Happy to see a happy family, but surprise that the husband was not a catholic. Wondering how good if I can find a husband who willing to follow me to attend mass, don't expect him to convert, but at least accompany me go for church for god's blessing=)

Prayed for having a nice day for our outing before went back.

God really heard my prayers!
On the way we went back from church, we must cross a damn big road! I HATE crossing roads!
Luckily Audrey was with me. She will holds my hands everytime crossing the roads=)
So lucky that,the cars were not in a fast speed this morning. We crossed the road so damn easy.

Once reached the main gate of hospital, a bus reached. We took the bus and stopped by for our lunch and continued our journey to Prangin mall first. Everything run smoothly.
After bought some stuff over there, we switched over to Queensbay.
Usually need drag quite some time for the bus, but we are lucky=)
Within 15min, the bus arrived. Feel like God is around with us~*

in the bus~*

We reached Queensbay earlier than the the time we expected.
Did our shopping there. Plan to grab some stuff for dinner as I did not buy gown for this coming annual dinner. But can't manage to grab any, as my gown is in Purple. Hard to find accessories to suit it.
Fine, will be simple and plain for this year=)

We wanted to have a movie-Rise of the Mummy! But unfortuantely, its full.
So, we canceled our plan and went for dinner at Wong Kok.

After dinner, we went back hostel.
We reached hostel by 6.30pm and went for a haircut as well.

what a mess!

Gosh! Forget to bring my keys along, yet roomate went out and haven't came back!

Force to disturb Miss Ong to open the door for me.

As waiting for her, a quick snap of my "new" haircut! Haha!

Without combing properly, a mess look!

 tada~* my "new" fringe..actually not much different. Just a lil shorter than before.

After comb properly=）

Blurred Mirror!

That's all for the day~♥

Guys wonder why girls don't talk to them anymore after a relationship. Truth is girls don't talk to guys because there afraid to like them again. A quote from facebook.

S.a.t.u.r.d.a.y

Its Saturday again!
The last day of a week.

Raining day~*

Today is the last day of posting.
Something happened. -----zip-----
What I can say is, its not easy to take over a nurse's responsibility.
I can figure out the stress of being a staff nurse in the future.
Really not easy to be a nurse='(
Anyway, pity Eugen*. Not all his fault, but had been pulled down in the water.
All the best and good luck, my friend!

After duty, its time to sleep again. Haix. This is my life.

Again, I'm so weird. Sleeping through out the whole afternoon. Suddenly woke up for no reason. After around 1 or 2 minutes, received a text from a ? human, Congratz-ing me. I wonder whose there. Some more, call me miao mee. I'm guessing is it is You there. Or myself think too much. I hope I'm the one who think too much. Sigh!
Anyhow, its really You there!
I don't know why, everytime, I'll woke up before receiving your message. Since last time, and even in the middle of the night. Can sudden awake for no reason and follow with receiving your text message.

No feeling.
No emo.

Wondering, You are actually following my blog..?

Take care and all the best too~*

~M.ღ.M.ღ~

五毛 和 五毛 是最幸福的, 因为他们凑成了一块! 所以以后不要叫我三毛或毛毛了><我要变五毛。寻找我的另一个五毛=)

Feel Like FLYING now=)

No words can describe my feeling right now. Just feel like wanna FLY! Haha!
Seriously, I'm super impressed to my group!! Really everything just born in the LAST MINUTE!!
Finish the Forum presentation by this morning. Woots!
Actually we were given around 1 month to complete our assignment. But, my group too chi kek, just started to discuss it a week before today, and nothing come out until YESTERNIGHT.
Other groups all had been memorizing their script so fluently and practiced times.
Every time they practiced, I get palpitation.><!!
Last minute to draft out a script. Not too bad. So damn bad luck, college printer spoil. No printer for us to print. Everyone of us keep searching for help. Luckily still have a friend helped us. Thanks him a lot!!=)

Okay, the upper part I actually composed it straight after the presentation!
Now, 10.15pm. I just no longer woke up. OMG! Slept for nearly 5 hours?! Luckily tomorrow evening shift, if not, I'm gonna be a body without soul hanging in the ward. Yet, again, I miss my dinner. Gosh! I have been starving since yesterday night. Akibat of stress of the presentation i think?! I don't feel hungry at all. Just took a bowl of porridge for lunch for today. Haix.

Good news.
Ummm, yesterday got a damn good news. First, I would like to congratz myself=) Hehehe.
Ahaha. Got the result. I got the position of 2 in the class!!
First, I thought I saw wrongly. Impossible is me. After Miss Chuan said it out, I only believe what I saw!

THIS IS MY FIRST TIME!! I'M SO HAPPY =)

I feel like wanna fly up up up!!!

The best position I get was when I'm in Semester 3, Test 2 also. Postion of 7. The best record of mine.

But, damn sad. I still can't mange to get in the position between 22 for overall 4 semesters.

I'm so regret I never study well in Semester 1 and 2.

Can not be denied, I really did not study well in my first year.

Think back to those time. Life totally sucks!! I always blame why am I here.

I remembered, I cried almost everyday and night and every time You appeared in my mind.

Everynight at least must dragged up 5am only can fall asleep. You will never know how much suffer You given to me!

But,I love my current life more, the life without You. I'm happy and no annoyance=)

I really hope to pick up my CGPA. I want to get in the position of 22 for overall semesters!
I must study hard!! I want prove to You and your family!
Seriously, I'm having a great life after You. No more tears and sad. Appreciate friends around me♥♥
Here, thanks god too~thanks for giving me luck for everything=)



Quote for the day :
A F.r.i.e.n.d is, the one who will help you when you get in trouble ♥♥

I just wanna say..............I DID IT=)

I just wanna say....I DID IT. I REALLY DID IT =)
YOU are just nothing. 
You are no longer my lover, You are my friends. 

以前总是觉得自己不可能放下，原来一切都是自己不愿意走出伤痛，
因为你说过，不管发生什么事，你都会在我身边。
也许我天真，我相信。
这两年来，不是没有其他人走进我的世界。
只是我害怕，哪天你回来，我不在了，你会难过。
也许，这一切对我来说，已经不重要了。

不过时间会证明一段感情。你让我看到了，你根本就不值得让我等你。

Had a great time with my family ♥♥

-19th Oct'10-
A tiring day again.
I can't stand in with the temperature of 18°C the whole day. Once I left the room with 18°C, I felt headache.
A sudden change to a room temperature makes me feel sick!
After duty, quickly changed my clothes and prepared myself for dinner with my family in 5minutes time.
Nearly 2 weeks I never go back home. Miss 'em♥♥
Carine had an appointment with her orthodontist for changing her braces. She had a violet braces nw=)
Joey, followed them came to Penang too. As this was the First time she back to Malaysia.
Have a nice holiday in M'sia, Joey=)
We off to Queensbay and had a quick shop there. Got a white plain-T for Carine and a purple for Joey from Padini. Hope both of them like it=)
Mom and I tried to get Joey some T's from Brands Outlet too. But unfortunately, she can't manage to grab any. But, I found a nice T there.

Its simple, i like the words!

My boyfriend's a vampire!

Seriously, I like this shirt! Plain, Simple, and Vampire. Haha!
This was the noob look of me. Which is the look I usually went for duties or classes. Straight went out without taking a shower after duty. hehe!
Carine and I chose each one and tried in the fitting room for fun. We are not going to buy 'em, because the material of the T's wasn't a good one. We had bought a few last time. After washing with washing machine for some times, the shape started gone. Too bad!

Finally, both us look a bit alike in this photo.

 Most of the people does not believe both of us are sister. Cause we don't look alike with each other. Perhaps, this may be the only photo we look "a little" alike. Haha!

e.x.c.h.a.n.g.e

vampire's fans ♥

 

Its 7.30pm. Its time for dinner. I wanted to have pizza as dinner=)

hey mom! the camara is over here!dad is ready. Where are you looking at?!

this is the best photo took by mom among all. Her skills got a bit fail! lol

.

Carine with her evil smile;)

cute mom!

After dinner, they sent me back to hostel again='(

Excited but Exhausted..

Woke up early in the morning and prepared myself for the brand new posting in the hospital.
Felt excited.
Went for breakfast with 'em. All of us took a heavy breakfast as we got no tea break.
Started our duty from 8.30am-5.30pm.
I cant share out those feeling and experiences I have gone through the whole day. As this might make me get into trouble?? Who knows~
Anyway, Doctors are G.R.E.A.T!! and Nurses too=)
They did most of the "job" that people could feel disgusting or even dirty.

The fact, they are brave=D

After duty, back to hostel.
Extremely tired.
Still got assignments need to complete. Presentation will be next week, yet my group still haven't make out a piece of sh*t. Will be having meeting for coming every night. Sigh*
I　ＮＥＥＤ　MORE　ＲＥＳＴ！！！


Quote for the day :
Believe and Listen to your doctor=)

B.o.r.e.d.W.e.e.k.e.n.d.s

Its Saturday. As usual, class finished at 12.30pm. But not going anywhere as I'm in bankrupt-ing condition.
Spent my day with searching Twilight free novel series via net, but unfortunately can't get it.
Finally, found it. Whole series, including Midnight Sun which not really published out, through android market.
That's mean I can read it in my phone anywhere, any time. Its great =D
Okay~This is perfectly to fill my lame Saturday night up.

♥♥

Again, a bored Sunday for me. I'm gonna died of this boredom!
Roomate went out  with her friends since morning. People is home alone, I'm room alone. XD
Dating with my "sparkling boy" whole morning, started feel a little tired of reading.
Switched for a movie- Love Disguise. Though its out of date, but still nice to watch=P
I like the story. How good if I can meet a 知音 like him. Haha!
Take a nap after the movie. My whole day gone...T^T

Preparing myself for tomorrow.
Posting to Operation Theater for 1 week there.
E. X.C.I.T.E.D 
Huhu~~Hope to see SPECIAL cases tomorrow=) 

OPERATION THEATER, HERE I COME =D